sebelum esok menjelma

yea..yea.. esok exam..
aku slalu excited bile nak exam..t'lalu exticed sampai jd sakit perut..btoll..x tipoo
esok peksa recomb, lusa peksa crop, tulat peksa genomic..on my birthday pon peksa gak..peksa plant biotek
ah..dah x tau ape nk tulis..jemari ni penat nk menenyeh butang2 kekunci presario ni. nak sambung bace crop la..harus, wajib aku melepasi diri dr 49 punye grade..tp aku dan crop science..macam aku dan lompat tinggi..gerun!!!!
lagi kene practice recomb past year..oh! sebelom itu..goreng daging balck pepper dan makan dulu..sori farah, sori nadiah..aku simpan la sikit ntuk korang..

tiba-tiba..
eh..tak faham aku..
kalau betul aku suka..x der la sampai tergila-gila
kalau ye la aku rindu..x pulak sampai makan x lalu..
ini cinta? x samanya..
dengan yang aku rasa zaman muda-muda
yang jantung macam nak terkeluar..muka panas blushing dan nafas tersekat
yang ini...
rasa macam....tersangkut..sebab x rasa apa2 pun..[lust at first sight]

imaginasi menari, meliar..tapi kembali ke Dr.Tam..
shoot..genome!!


..ini my lust at first sight..auw..geramnyea!!!!

this post is for intan farhana

minggu exam x pernah x pening, penat dan penuh pancaroba buat saya.
pening= study overload
penat= ini la akan t'jadi kalau study last minit..tapi..saya buat jugak tiap2 semester..bad habit..bahahahad habit..harus..eh wajib ditukar..ngeheheh
penuh pancaroba= kerana seringkali saya ditimpa ujian2 yang memeritkan jiwa..atau to top it up ujian2 yang mengringkan duit poket saya..hush..itu yang berat itu,payah gile
cuba saya listkan ujian2 hidup saya dlm mingu2 peperiksaan ni eh..
1. hilang handphone..kene pinjam hp juan-kawan saya yg bangang (in a good, funny way)..die ade la ugak bengkek sbb sy selalu secara x sengaja taruk handphone die punye screen face down..kt lantai la..calar la..so..tp itu da setel..sbb saya da beli hp bru,yang saya sgt adore.hehehe..tapi time tu energy saya da hilang suku..untuk menabahkan diri terima kenyataan handphone saya hilang dan move forward
2.kemudian, laptop saya rosak..dududududud..x taw kenapa..selepas 3 minggu digodek oleh kazen saya, si Ammar tu..kantoi la saya da merosakkan RAM laptop saya..saya pun x taw apa yang saya telah lakukan sampai RAM saya boleh rosak..Bak kata Tiqs, itu mcm lagi berat dari rosakkan HDD..huhu..emak saya da kuarkan duit RM100 untyk beli RAM baru..yang mana saya kene bayar balik kepada beliau..hahaha
3.minggu peperiksaan menjelang..enough said, right?
dengan penat dan peningnye..saya menjadi sangat emo..and that is very uncool
4.sebab saya rajin sangat stuy, saya tertidur atas laptop saya..yang saya baru dapat semula tersebut..kepala la..bukan vuntut atas laptop..kepala aje..dengan earphone di antara keyboard dan skrin..tekanan+ point presure di skrin meneybabkan skrin laptop saya pecah..huhu..hilang lagi RM700
5.saya kene tendang dari hostel..sbb saya lupe nk submit extesion form..saya x blame sape2 kecuali diri sendiri..tapi yang sampai insiden ini di'classified' kan sebagai bala kerana saya x berani nak kasitau mak saya yang saya kene duduk luar.tapi saya dah kasitau pun..so, kire setel la..cuma ader rase takut nakbalik rumah..macam akan kene marah je
ade yang laen..tapi macm insignificance je.so, abaikan
itu je la kut..jadi oleh sebab 5 perkara ini..saya rase energy level saya sangat low...macm dlam lagu Get Low tersebut..ngahahaha..harap2 esok bile ade makan2 ramai2 di rumah yaya dan duit mara da masuk kelak..eergy saya akan direstore ke full level..
sekian..salam

hujan.cejuk.kucil.rumah.ooooooooopedihsekali

ntah ape2 ntah tajuk tuh..ayat tersebut direka b'dasarkn keadaan meteorology cuaca yg sedang hujan dgn lebatnye..dan kesejukan AC di Lab Kom 8 (Kom itu singkatan kepada Computer ya) menyebabkn kesejukan yg menusuk tulang sum-sum bak ayat2 klasik..dan getaran pada pundi kencing saya.rumah itu pula krna saya sedang homesick (setiap hari adalah hari homesick) dan saya mahu pulang ke rumah ntuk menatap wajah emak (Makcik Meah - gelaran yg diberikan oleh saya kpd mak kesayangan saya), ayah (Pakcik Anual - supaya mudah untuk diingati), abik (adik saya, nama beliaw sebenarnya Azri Muizzuddin, saya suka nama dia) dan Ahmad (Ahmad Mushthofa, adik bungsu buah hati saya). Tapi abik, mak dan ayah berada di Balok, Kuantan kini..atas urusan kerja ayah yg tidak dapat dielakkan lagi. manakala Ahmad pula berada dirumah Wak Mas saya (saya b'keturunan Jowo ya), maka tidak ada gunanya kalau saya pulang ke rumah hanya untuk bertemankan sepi, dinding, tv dan sofa.huhu.
apela..panjang gile perenggan ntuk explain tajuk je!

saya br abis m'baca satu blog oleh ssorg yg x dikenali (yg ditunjukkn oleh Tiqs..nnt saya upload gambo Tiqs), Tiqs pon x kenal..tp blog beliaw sgt lawak..b'dekah2 saya ketawa mnyebabkn pundi kencing saya spt mau pecah..tp saya tahankan jua krn jari2 saya mahu menari2 di atas keyboard untuk m'buat satu luahan hati yg psiko bak kata Tiqs tp bg saya sgt menghiris hati, meledakkan gunung kemarahan dan hampir meledakkan larva2 benci dalam hati saya yg polos dan murni ini.

Saya ada kawan. Kawan saya __________. Nama dia ___________. Dia sangat gila. Setiap hari dia akan buat satu kerja dan tidak ingat dunia (seperti kata mak saya). Saya sangat geram. Dia seolah anjing gila yang tidak akan berhenti mengejar selagi tidak dapat menggigit.Dia sangat seram.Saya sangat takut.Tapi dia tetap kawan saya.Jadi saya akan simpan saja geram ini dalam hati atau luahkan di dalam 'ngarut-ngarut kehidupan'.Saya tidak larat hendak main kejar-mengejar dengan dia lagi. Kalau dia rasa cambest berada di depan, dengan anggapan dia paling best, maka saya hanya mampu doakan dia akan bahagia berperasaan seperti best itu. Tapi bak kata pepatah (Cikgu Asmui selalu suruh letak satu analogi/simpulan bahas/ peribahasa dalam setiap perenggan) Hidup ini seperti roda,walau kita di atas, tetapi kita akan berada di bawah jua. Maka, saya yakin Tuhan akan membalas apa yang dia buat kepada saya dengan balasan yang setimpal.Amin~

so?menghiris hati x?

stress kut....

mintak maaf kpd group partner ntuk lab Food Sience aku..korg kene wat gula2 tanpa aku di sana
mintak maaf kpd yati, tiqs, wanie n mayna..(acap ngan farouq ming ming x der kene mengena ngan aku) sbb x g lab genetic..
mintak maaf kpd jimah ngan ________ sbb x pegi lab biochemistry
lastly,
mintak maaf kpd nabel n shing wei sbb x pegi lab microbiology
...................
i'm depressed..so, i'm gonna colour my nail yellow!

luahan.perasaan.kepada.BTH2742

i should've look for reference sooner

i should've made some draft and read some books earlier

so that later i could drink milo instead of 1L nescafe extra black

so that later i could sleep instead of making my head crack

laziness is a habit,

and a habit is a chain too strong to be broken once adopted

it's pathetic to wish for it to be easier, since it won't

i wasted time, and now time waste me..

huhu~

the story of danny and matt

knape american idol cambesh manakala m*l***ian idol cam k***i** je?
hahahaha...ntuk m'buat post psl setiap contestant..aku x begitu rajin..hatta sebenarnye aku x punya waktu sbb aku tgh wat tunggu lab report microbiology aku donload dr email yahoo aku (thumbdrive rosak)..lambat nk mati..huhu..
sambil tu tggu webpage MTV american idol lak..pun lambat nak mati gak..ape nk jadi la monash ni..edmund turner (manager ITS monash) ni x wat keje ke?ntah ape2..hahaha..
back to the real topic, smlm aku tgk american idol eps 27..i know.. da lps dah..peduli ape aku..aku nk tlis gak kt blog aku.hahaha..start ngan Danny Gocky nyanyi lagu Mickey Gilley's version of Stand by Me and closed with Matt Giraus performing Stevie Wonder's Part Time Lover.

Danny mmg mantap!!go..go..Gocky!!I love you Danny!!

Matt da 2 mnggu asyik nynayi lagu yg x seswai~ t'igt dye merosakkan lagu Viva la Vida..lagu yg ni..arrangement dye sgt msauk ngan sangat jazzy!siap ade groovy moves lagi you!em~sizzlin'.. I Like!!

bukan nk kate ape la..yg kt tengah2 tu mmg xle nak catch up la ngan Danny and mesti dyeorg frust bile dgr Matt nyanyi plak. even Kris pun x sdp..pd hal the week before, dye nyanyi Ain't no Sunshine bapak best..best nk mati!!

whatever..semoga American idol trs maju jaya and Simon Cowell dpt hidyah,,hahahaha.

p/s -sempat gak siapkn lab report microbiology..kagum dgn diri sendiri!hahaha

Hatiku.Dicuri.Suda~

like, seriously...by this guy..hahaha John Statham...i like!!!!

rase hepi stiap kali review Transporter 3..

(beb, setiap kali?brape kali da maksudnye ni?)

o~da banyak la jgk..stiap kali bukak lappie, n seblom ttp lappie

(sengal abis...ape yg ko tengok?)

fighting n stripping~yeah~

(gilo)

tp ade gossip dye gay

(eh?)

sbb ade org gile busuk sti x puas ati sbb dye adelah dye

(????)

x percaye lgsg

(asal ko bhgia sntiasa sudey)

tp x der love interest pun kt tenet ni, risau gak ni

(gay betol kut...)

TIDAK!!!!!!

(hijau) = aku yg nak wat genetic biochem

(merah) = aku yg layan Transporter 3 sampai mati

hahaha

hu?

i'm scared...i have this Biochem assignment that made up ___% of my result but i don't even start on it yet..and my break is coming to end too..huhuhu..the scariest part..i only feel slight guilty about it..shit! and i rarely went to Dr.Ton's lecture..huhuhu...i don't care!

Summary mid-sem Break..

travel dgn susah payah ntuk sampai ke rumah..mujur ade org turunkn beg kt erl..cam b'gaya aje

b'joli sakan di Alamanda, pastu ushar Teratk Hijjaz kt Asatana Dagang..ok gak la..cam resort dalm taman..cam nk pegi..mak kate b'day abang..cam lmbt siot je..nk pegi time cuti ni!!!ngendeng dkt ayah aje

blk dr alamanda, ayah pgi outstation ke KT, smngt belikn naufal laptop knk2,skali x mskkn dlm beg..hahahah..x der rezeki ko naufal..padan muka..

ayah blk tengahari td..hooyah..ak ikut je beg ayah tu sampai dapur..tnggu jugak bile org tua ni bukak beg..bila bukak ape lg...serbu!!!keropok lekor yg sexy kerna sweaty dlm beg ayah sedia mennti...hahaha..bahagia dpt makan keropok lekor..t'rigt rumah kt Balok..

best nye Otak2 n satar..aku mau!!!!

tgh2 malam x leh tido (sbb tido secara duet ngan ammar d sofa ptg td) layan la The Forbidden Kingdom..ah~ kagum nk mati..heppi ending yg sgt2..lawak pun ade..hahaha..next movie will be.............x decide lg..yg pengting nk practice kungfu dkt Ahmad..blasah je..hahaha

se-minit selepas kekeliruan...

decided..lyan Transporter 3 lak..

ade satu scene tu..Frank (hero abg botak) lwn2 org jht..biase la..pastu bukak kot (as a weapon)..pastu tie..pastu baju lak..lg sexy dr tgk stripper beb!abg botak strip smbl b'lawan dgn machonya..aw~epinaphrine memuncak!!!!aw~

hanya untuk santapan..eh tatapn mata gadis2 yg sdh akhil baligh shj..hahaha

walaupun..beliaw x drive Audi nya..hanya menunggang BMX shj..kejantanan beliaw ttp melebihi macho..hu..

Selasa...

Kalau bukan sbb laki Angelina Jolie,  Encik Brad Pitt tu..x de nye aku layan The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.. untuk satu movie based on just a short story, this just curiously long..2 jam lebih-lebih..

pervy brad~ehehe~

sole reason ntuk aku donlod n bukak citer ni sbb oleh Brad Pitt..tp..w'pun ader dye..suku akhir je Brad Pitt versi hensem..yg dpn2 tue blake..urgh2..mesti Brad Pitt reflect bile tue nnt muke dye camne..hahahaha..hahahaha (lg)...hahahahahaha(dan lagi)..hehehehe..semput...ape2 pun, tepukan gemuruh, dgn tangan dan kaki untuk make-up artist sbb dyorg punye keje mmg mantap..but kalu da ade canvas se'ok' brad pitt, ape2 pun sng nak bwat kan..hahaha..

tapi..STILL!!pulangkan semula 2 jam ku!!!!!!!

Rabu lak...hari Ko-korikulum Semalaysia

Penat jd kakak mithali ni..3 skaf pengakap kene gulung, kn pakai kn lagi..mujur x kn suruh zipkn seluar sekali..ngade2 thap babi ngade lak budak2 ni..mujur aku punyer thp toleransi atas sikit je dri mafia2 Itali yg t'catat namenye dlm sejarah dunia and aku x abis belaje wrestling..x der la telinga kene gigit sampai putus cam yg Mohd. Ali wat tuh..hahaha

Punisher War Zone lak..berdarah siot..hhahahah..pastu aku gelak..dah psiko agaknye..tp bile tgk org m'bunuh org laen dgr kool n selambenye cam dlm citer ni..rase cam nk tukar kejaya impian lak..mls lak nk jd doktor IVF..best jd pembunuh upahan wanita kut..hahahah..nganganganga..

lepas tu cam buhsan je citer Punisher war Zone ni..skip sekejap..bukak Australia plak..sbb ade Hugh Jackman...hm (bunyi cam iklan sup krim tu)hahahaha..wau~huh~kipas pusing no. 3 pun x trnkn lg hot aku..steam kuar dr tellinga..bahaya..bahaya...

sambung tgk Australia kul 1030 mlm..hahaha...Hugh Jackman tibe2 dr b'jambang cam baboon br nk evolve.....

 tibe2 pakai suit, muke bersih..ah~rambut sisir tepi, jambul sikit..klasik..hm~meow~ bapak macho, tgn pegang kot ke blakang, cium nicole kidman..hahaha..i like hugh jackman!!!!hidop wolverine!!!hidop van helsing!!!hidop mr.drover!!!

i like hugh jackman!!!!hidop wolverine!!!hidop van helsing!!!hidop mr.drover!!!bile pikir balik..keluarga dorig ni pelik gile..mak dr england yg lady-like, snob2 sikit..manners bla2..bapak adventurous gile, serabai gile, hot gile, x der manner sgt..anak mix omputih-aborigin.hahaha..b'peluk 3 ekor..hahaha

p/s sanagt suke lyn Gym Class Heroes - The Queen and I and Bob Marley - Turn Your Light Down Low

i've been a bad blogger..niat di hati nk jadi 'blogger tegar' tapi masalahnye  punye kesempatan..kesempatan waktu, maupun kesempatan internet..

x kisah la..patutnye/niatnye/sebenarnye..sblm post ni ptt ade satu post psl abang udin aku kawen..tp x der ape2 syok pun t'jd kt kenduri..kerbau cool je kene sembelih, bukan penyanyi 

undangan tu ajak aku b'karaoke pun, makcik2 dtg pakai baju kurug je..bkn kain t'belah pun. so pendek cite..cam kenduri kawen biase2 yg ko pernah participate..

yg laen dr yg laen nye..ammar (kcousin), ipin(cousin) ngan ahmad(adik) jd AJK air. kalu Abik ade..mesti beliaw punye la tu. 

Huda pakai bj kebaya kain jaring nelayan je..tp rege = RM300++,  (bukan baju ni)

aku lak pakai baju ungu faverit..kasut VINCCI 14 ringgit..percaye x?caye je la kiterog bergambo ngan embah kesayangn kiteorg..kiteorg 2 je yg poyo maut ngan embah ni..org lain sumer tatut~

ntah ape2 EMBAH THE BEST!!

tibe2 time pengantin dtg..abang aku lak jd pengapit..1st time tgk pengapit x hensem..hahaha...

aku b'gambo ngan kamera sape2 ntah

dan bergambo

dan bergambo lagi

gambo aku amik sumer lawa..gambo org laen amik x cukup 'artistry' ntah ape2..supaya x ada kekeliruan..1st pic is not  mine.

oh ya..dh dpt lesen keta..husya yeah bebeh! jgn ditanye brape kali amik..penat sudah aku ceriterakan

esok balik umah..cuti ~11 hari dgn 6 homework..1 perkataan shj..Penat?Bukan...Mampus?Bukan juga..SIALAN!tepat sekali....

seblm pulang..mau tonton "jangan tegur" dgn Kecik n Nadiya..semoga mlm ini mata mau pejam dan otak mau rehat.

Pada malam Ahad br2 ini..

boboi: Ahmad, suh Amalina tgk cerita antu tu (giggling)

Aku: (hm? ade cite antu ke?). kalu dlm laptop aku, aku x tkt la..

boboi: yg dgr lagu lps tu kuar antu

Azam: hahahaha..takut kn?(dgn sutunnye)

Aku: eleh~ hr2 tgk..bulu idong aku x b'getar lgsg..bapak x m'cabar

Along: Yang mane?

Ahmad: Yang aku wat kt ko siang td

Along: oh~

Adik enter the scene

Ahmad: adik, dgr lagu ni

boboi: (giggles)

Azam: (giggles)

Aku, Along: (ntah ape2, indifference, minum kopi saje)

Ahmad: (bukak flash Sajat Ali)

.............

WARGH!!!!!!

Adik: (baling headphone Sonic Gear aku, lps tu peluk Ahmad) kyaa~

Aku: (Roffle)

boboi: (Roffle)

Ahmad: (Roffle)

Along: (Roffle)

Azam: (Roffle)

Adik: (kesat air mata sikit) wargh~ jahat!

and the laughing continues...hahahaha

7/3/2009

sbb ak da tido sepanjg perjalanan dr Sepang ke tol nk mask ke Johor...so, bile da ats katil kt umah embah ak ni ak x leh tido lak..jd, untuk tidak m'abaikn masa, ak pn layan la changeling...yg angelina jolie b'lakon tu..best la..xder la berat sgt, x der la ringan sempoi nyer citer. 

Mcm yg diuar2kn kt dlm movie review, citer ni psal Catherine Collins (Angelina Jolie) yg ade sorg anak laki, Willliam Collins. Catherine ni keje jd operator, org dulu2 kalu angkt tepon je operator yg jwb dulu, pastu br la kite kasitaw dye kite nk kol no ape, nnt dye yg tolong dialkn (ni br aku taw slps tgk citer ni..ehe). ha..satu hari si Catherine ni keje wat OT, so, dia tngglkn la ank dye. Sekali blk umah, ank dye, si William tu hilang...Citer ni pun skip 5 bln slps itu, polis jumpe la ank dye...atau yg lbh tepat, bdk tu ngaku ank Catherine, x taw la knape. Memandangkn time tu, imej LAPD tgh dikatakn korup, and time reunion Catherine and Willianm tu press tgh ramai, so chief tu pun suh la si Catherine accept je budak tu. Si Catherine ni plak kn, pompuan dolu2, and tgh in state of shock and confused, so dye bwk balik je la bdk tu. Bile da kt umah, time mandi dye perasan budak tu da sunat sdgkn anak dye x, and budak tu rndh 3 inci dr anak dye...Mcm2 si catherine ni kene, msk rmh sakit jiwa la..tibe2 lak ade kes serial killer budak2, n assistant killer tu identify william as one of the boys. So, cam kesian giler Catherine ni, da la ank hilang, pastu mgkn da dibunuh lak tu. P'bunuh tu in the end kn hukum gantung. Sehari sblm dye digantung, dye anto telegram nk jumpe Catherine, ntuk kasitaw pkr sebenar, tp bile si Catherine dtg, dye x leh nk kasitaw lak. So, sampai p'bunuh tu kn gantung oun, si catherine ni x taw, ank dye konfem da mati ke blom. Tensen..5 thn lps tu, tb2 ade sorg budak ni ckp, dye penah kene tgkp oleh pembunuh tu and then dpt lari. William slh sorg drp yg dpt lari tu. Tp, lps tu dyeorg b'pecah 4 org so x taw la William tu slmt ke x. Sampai la saat t'akhir citer cangeling ni aku tgk, dye x kasitaw Catherine ni reunite x dgn William. dye just tulis, 'Catherine Collins never stopped looking for her son'. Cilakak btol la!

malam sabtu tu, kiteorg (ak, mayna, wani, kecik) pergi karaoke (lagi!). kali ni murah sikit sbb kiterog amik yg lps midnight, overall 18++ aje kut. Melalak la ape lg, dpt jgk la b'angan jd Le Ann WOmack, nyanyi lagu I Hope You Dance, nk cr feeling jd cam David Gockey American Idol..ehehe..I like mamat tu..Duda lagi U~ ending ak nyanyi lagu MUH- Lagu Untukmu. aku sendiri t'pesona ngan nyanyian aku melalak.ahahaha..leh try mask OIAM ni..ngahahaha. Kecik pun harus ditabik krn menyanyikn lagu2 Cina dgn feeling skali..hebat2. Jgn main2, citarasa kecik la yg plg x bleh blah skali..maen rock gak..aku rase dye nk nyanyi lgu Amuk satu, tp x jumpe yg b'kenan di hati la plak..xpe kecik..bulan depan kite cari lagi.hahahaha!Wani lagu ape lagi..dangdut, lagu pop pompuan yg dolu2..hm..seswai..igt lg dye lgu2 tu..aku tobat igt korus je..Mayna lak byk pilih lagu rock, cam simple plan, ade LP satu kut. tp yg kesian nye dye x ckp 1 lagu..huhu..mjr kami x ade tonsel cam Tix..kesian beliaw..nyanyi berape lagu je. skali tonsel dye sakit, siap demam 51 degree lg..semoga cpt sembuh ye ^^

p/s ckp sal Catherine ni, t'igt lecturer aku nnt, catherine Yule..hu~

igtkn nk mskkn gambo..tp lupe gambo ade kt kecik..x amik lg..next time je la

4 days to go…

heh..I’m starting the countdown for my fellow Monash entourage reunion…

ah~I miss Jimah full of awfulness specific-for-me-treatment à I’m not a masochist but she only gets mean to me, as she say ‘no point being nice to you’ and that makes me feel special..aheh…sounds masochist enough.. :P

I miss Wanie pervert-ness àno, I just talk dirty but my hand will just stay still, it’s just fun to be around her, and no, I don’t like to be sexually assaulted by her

I miss Mayna and Tiqsàmy loyal and trustworthy comrade for the cutest, sweetest shoujo manga hunting

I miss Yaya-neechan àjust because, I think I get smarter and wiser when I’m with her

For sure I miss Intan àsilly fighting over nothing everyday

I miss ‘rumah sebelah’; Yati, Farah Mas, Tiqah, Bazilah…

I miss ‘rumah depan’; for their never ending supplies of k-drama and j-dorama.

Ah~ I miss everyone!!!!! (even though names are not mentioned)

ai..it’s 1:21 am, and I’m still wide awake..I was thinking to write a new post in (this) my newly blog, but tch...the broadband doesn’t work well..I can’t even play World of Blood on my FB, and that is the only things preventing me from fall into the pit of boredom hell…so, I’m writing in Words® and I think I’ll post this journal later..

My brain spins…slowly and I still don’t have any idea what should I write.

Oh~ how about if I try to write about me and Ainil. She is the one person I miss right now. I mean suddenly, at a fleeting moment I thought about her.

I, contrary to popular opinion, am not a snobbish, self-discrete and unsociable person. This is what I get from fellow friends after asking them ‘what do you think of me when the first time we meet?’ And surprisingly this is also what I get from my brother; older brother (Amir), baby brother (Abik) and little brother (Ahmad). And even my parents. They always like, ‘You should talk more’. Oh no Mummy, I am talkative, when I’m in the mood, that is and you see…that mood rarely swings by hu~(sigh) and banana don’t do the tricks for me. But my FB personality test result is; I'm a bit aggressive 

I prefer to classify myself under the taxonomy of friendly than cold hearted. I could initiate conversation with anyone if I feel like to. For example, during one pissed and boredom near- death experience waiting for the AMN van to take us; me and Arif (cousin)  home, I started talking with this person, completely a stranger about UIA matriculation complex in Nilai (where he boards, yes..he’s a guy) and his coming exams and Monash and bla3..But since I learnt the definition of ‘hate’ and ‘love’, I think I should re-classify myself as an indifference person after all.

Lately I think I’ve been left behind in a lot of event. Perhaps it is due to the geographical location of my home, build in such of a remote place? Or is it due to transportation inconveniency?  Goddamn I wish I have a car. Even Ainil kind of forget about me…(Yes, I’m whining) but heh~ who am I to bound her life...mmm…who? hmm…no seriously-who am I to her?

After rolling on bed a few times, the more I give a thought on this, the more clearer it became..’self-proclaim best friend’ should be the phrase…yup…and this goes for both of us. Ainil and I started to get close when I was kinda alone after the continuous, huge yet trivial argument with Tyqeen. So perhaps, I still linger for the kindness I was showered back then; I end up clinging with Ainil. But Ainil and I also argue, a lot too, a lot more than the argument I had with Tyqeen. We clashes at every opinion. Our taste is different. She likes hot spicy and healthy food stuff, I have a sweet tooth. She likes to chill, hangs out; I prefer to curdle in my comforter and talk about everything or just read my manga collection. She wanted to live a ‘youthful life’ as that is her fave phrase; but I just wanna have a peaceful, carefree life. Hm..Nabil (Nabilah Samsudin) once ask me, ‘camner korang leh jadi best friend, padahal slalu gaduh je aku tengok?’ That question was left unanswered, since I had no idea what to say. Nabil got diverted by me and we end up talking how much I adore Ainil becoz Ainil was such a nice and kind girl. We talked about like how Ainil will listen to all my problems (trivial matter though), Ainil will put up with my hard head (a very rare person and the kind that I tend to like the most), pays for my food during the striving era of Yan’s economic crisis XD , peels apples and cut oranges for me (<3), 

Maybe next time I’ll write about Tyqeen…sure miss her too +_+

Kindness In Life

Hari ni 'Reader Digest' Mac 2009 punye da sampai..hahaha..buku tu mmg selalu sampai awal...x pelah..blh gak m'bace sst yg b'gune selain komik yg aku hadap tiap2 hari ni (?? komik = kategori b'gune ke?..lantak,malas nk tukar ayat blk)

Sblm ak melalut lbh jauh, back to the reader digest, cover title die psal 'kindness' n the feature article is about why kindness is good for you. dlm article tu ade la a few statistic on kindness and health;  groups with many altruists tend to survive (Prof. Sam Bowles, Santa Fe Institute, AS); random act of kindness can also make us happier (Prof Sonja Lyubomirsky, U of California)..and bla3 ...pas tu ak t'fkr and recall blk saat2 ak jd kind (yg sekali sekala tu)

1. penah la jugak kasi seat dlm bus ntuk makcik yg tgh pegang plastic giant yg agak besar

2. penah jugak stop sorg pakcik buta sblm dye melangkah melebihi grsan kuning kt putra kl central.. at first i thought i was just gonna pretend not to see the uncle, but..tch..can't really believe i stop that uncle..

3. tlg class teacher ak angkat brg time form 5, the only teacher i like if i'm not mistaken..oho..miss bei yan (cikgu ntuk american music mus1800) pun ak penah tlg bwk kertas2 dye gak

4. cook poridge for an ill fever

5. pays dinner for someone who's at the moment..penniless..

6. kasitau kt sorg budak ni yg kalau nk ke kl central naik tren ni, bukn tren seberang kt KTM subang jaya..just like helping a lost person la..

7. told someone (waiter/waitress, pakcik taxi, makck jual kuih) to keep the change

mungkin ade lg..tp cam x igt je..mungkin jgk ini je yg ak wat baik..ntah..aku serah pd Yang Esa.. but i was raised well..so, there MUST be MORE!! while typing the kind act i've done, i tried to recall the feeling, sensation i got after doing all of those deed, which is..........................(fikir pnjg).............................

1.relief, we malaysians, in my opinion was taught to be kind since our toddler days; mengalah ntuk yg kecik, offer la org laen, share2 la, derma la ntuk tabng kebajikan, kalu gi masjid hr jumaat, jgn lupe mskkn duit..bla3..or maybe it is just in our blood, as a human that if we see someone less fortunate than us, we tend to help..and if we doesn't offer any aid, we'll leave the scene with a bit of guilt..at least this is how i would feel if i'm in the kind of situation of not able to help..so the relief feeling i get maybe refer to the "hu~ aku da tlg da org tu" inner-self monologue..erm..so, kindness is a kind of social obligation??

2.then, i feel proud, this is normal i guess..we humans are selfish and self-centered creature..so, if once in a while i did not think about myself and think about others, i feel proud inside..hehehe

3. happy..of course~~ :D

dlm artikel reader digest tu jugak, dye ade sebut..'people enjoy being kind to others much as they enjoy eating ice-cream. It gives us pleasure'..and when i tries to relate with the feeling i felt..yep..it's totally true..

p/s Favourite quote about kindness

Kindness in words creates confidence; kindness in thinking creates profoundness; kindness in giving creates love. 

- Lao Tzu

Kindness is a language; which the deaf can hear, the mute can speak and, the blind can see 

shuweet~~