4 days to go…

heh..I’m starting the countdown for my fellow Monash entourage reunion…

ah~I miss Jimah full of awfulness specific-for-me-treatment à I’m not a masochist but she only gets mean to me, as she say ‘no point being nice to you’ and that makes me feel special..aheh…sounds masochist enough.. :P

I miss Wanie pervert-ness àno, I just talk dirty but my hand will just stay still, it’s just fun to be around her, and no, I don’t like to be sexually assaulted by her

I miss Mayna and Tiqsàmy loyal and trustworthy comrade for the cutest, sweetest shoujo manga hunting

I miss Yaya-neechan àjust because, I think I get smarter and wiser when I’m with her

For sure I miss Intan àsilly fighting over nothing everyday

I miss ‘rumah sebelah’; Yati, Farah Mas, Tiqah, Bazilah…

I miss ‘rumah depan’; for their never ending supplies of k-drama and j-dorama.

Ah~ I miss everyone!!!!! (even though names are not mentioned)

ai..it’s 1:21 am, and I’m still wide awake..I was thinking to write a new post in (this) my newly blog, but tch...the broadband doesn’t work well..I can’t even play World of Blood on my FB, and that is the only things preventing me from fall into the pit of boredom hell…so, I’m writing in Words® and I think I’ll post this journal later..

My brain spins…slowly and I still don’t have any idea what should I write.

Oh~ how about if I try to write about me and Ainil. She is the one person I miss right now. I mean suddenly, at a fleeting moment I thought about her.

I, contrary to popular opinion, am not a snobbish, self-discrete and unsociable person. This is what I get from fellow friends after asking them ‘what do you think of me when the first time we meet?’ And surprisingly this is also what I get from my brother; older brother (Amir), baby brother (Abik) and little brother (Ahmad). And even my parents. They always like, ‘You should talk more’. Oh no Mummy, I am talkative, when I’m in the mood, that is and you see…that mood rarely swings by hu~(sigh) and banana don’t do the tricks for me. But my FB personality test result is; I'm a bit aggressive 

I prefer to classify myself under the taxonomy of friendly than cold hearted. I could initiate conversation with anyone if I feel like to. For example, during one pissed and boredom near- death experience waiting for the AMN van to take us; me and Arif (cousin)  home, I started talking with this person, completely a stranger about UIA matriculation complex in Nilai (where he boards, yes..he’s a guy) and his coming exams and Monash and bla3..But since I learnt the definition of ‘hate’ and ‘love’, I think I should re-classify myself as an indifference person after all.

Lately I think I’ve been left behind in a lot of event. Perhaps it is due to the geographical location of my home, build in such of a remote place? Or is it due to transportation inconveniency?  Goddamn I wish I have a car. Even Ainil kind of forget about me…(Yes, I’m whining) but heh~ who am I to bound her life...mmm…who? hmm…no seriously-who am I to her?

After rolling on bed a few times, the more I give a thought on this, the more clearer it became..’self-proclaim best friend’ should be the phrase…yup…and this goes for both of us. Ainil and I started to get close when I was kinda alone after the continuous, huge yet trivial argument with Tyqeen. So perhaps, I still linger for the kindness I was showered back then; I end up clinging with Ainil. But Ainil and I also argue, a lot too, a lot more than the argument I had with Tyqeen. We clashes at every opinion. Our taste is different. She likes hot spicy and healthy food stuff, I have a sweet tooth. She likes to chill, hangs out; I prefer to curdle in my comforter and talk about everything or just read my manga collection. She wanted to live a ‘youthful life’ as that is her fave phrase; but I just wanna have a peaceful, carefree life. Hm..Nabil (Nabilah Samsudin) once ask me, ‘camner korang leh jadi best friend, padahal slalu gaduh je aku tengok?’ That question was left unanswered, since I had no idea what to say. Nabil got diverted by me and we end up talking how much I adore Ainil becoz Ainil was such a nice and kind girl. We talked about like how Ainil will listen to all my problems (trivial matter though), Ainil will put up with my hard head (a very rare person and the kind that I tend to like the most), pays for my food during the striving era of Yan’s economic crisis XD , peels apples and cut oranges for me (<3), 

Maybe next time I’ll write about Tyqeen…sure miss her too +_+

Kindness In Life

Hari ni 'Reader Digest' Mac 2009 punye da sampai..hahaha..buku tu mmg selalu sampai awal...x pelah..blh gak m'bace sst yg b'gune selain komik yg aku hadap tiap2 hari ni (?? komik = kategori b'gune ke?..lantak,malas nk tukar ayat blk)

Sblm ak melalut lbh jauh, back to the reader digest, cover title die psal 'kindness' n the feature article is about why kindness is good for you. dlm article tu ade la a few statistic on kindness and health;  groups with many altruists tend to survive (Prof. Sam Bowles, Santa Fe Institute, AS); random act of kindness can also make us happier (Prof Sonja Lyubomirsky, U of California)..and bla3 ...pas tu ak t'fkr and recall blk saat2 ak jd kind (yg sekali sekala tu)

1. penah la jugak kasi seat dlm bus ntuk makcik yg tgh pegang plastic giant yg agak besar

2. penah jugak stop sorg pakcik buta sblm dye melangkah melebihi grsan kuning kt putra kl central.. at first i thought i was just gonna pretend not to see the uncle, but..tch..can't really believe i stop that uncle..

3. tlg class teacher ak angkat brg time form 5, the only teacher i like if i'm not mistaken..oho..miss bei yan (cikgu ntuk american music mus1800) pun ak penah tlg bwk kertas2 dye gak

4. cook poridge for an ill fever

5. pays dinner for someone who's at the moment..penniless..

6. kasitau kt sorg budak ni yg kalau nk ke kl central naik tren ni, bukn tren seberang kt KTM subang jaya..just like helping a lost person la..

7. told someone (waiter/waitress, pakcik taxi, makck jual kuih) to keep the change

mungkin ade lg..tp cam x igt je..mungkin jgk ini je yg ak wat baik..ntah..aku serah pd Yang Esa.. but i was raised well..so, there MUST be MORE!! while typing the kind act i've done, i tried to recall the feeling, sensation i got after doing all of those deed, which is..........................(fikir pnjg).............................

1.relief, we malaysians, in my opinion was taught to be kind since our toddler days; mengalah ntuk yg kecik, offer la org laen, share2 la, derma la ntuk tabng kebajikan, kalu gi masjid hr jumaat, jgn lupe mskkn duit..bla3..or maybe it is just in our blood, as a human that if we see someone less fortunate than us, we tend to help..and if we doesn't offer any aid, we'll leave the scene with a bit of guilt..at least this is how i would feel if i'm in the kind of situation of not able to help..so the relief feeling i get maybe refer to the "hu~ aku da tlg da org tu" inner-self monologue..erm..so, kindness is a kind of social obligation??

2.then, i feel proud, this is normal i guess..we humans are selfish and self-centered creature..so, if once in a while i did not think about myself and think about others, i feel proud inside..hehehe

3. happy..of course~~ :D

dlm artikel reader digest tu jugak, dye ade sebut..'people enjoy being kind to others much as they enjoy eating ice-cream. It gives us pleasure'..and when i tries to relate with the feeling i felt..yep..it's totally true..

p/s Favourite quote about kindness

Kindness in words creates confidence; kindness in thinking creates profoundness; kindness in giving creates love. 

- Lao Tzu

Kindness is a language; which the deaf can hear, the mute can speak and, the blind can see 

shuweet~~